How about that?

Well...Things here in South Africa have made me adjust to many things in my routine, like taking public transportation to work, wake up really early, the "hurricane like" winds and the unusual (for my tropical self) june-july winter of the southern hemisphere.

The hardest part of all...las personas que amo están viviendo 6 horas atrás de mi presente...

It sucks! to form new routines and being thrown with complete strangers in a foreign country miles and miles away from home. I'm used to having little "me times" during the day or the week and I find myself asphyxiated sometimes with having people so different around me...
Pero por otro lado, me agrada tener a una puertorriqueña de los EU viviendo conmigo, pues aprendido muchas cosas diferentes...

Cheers!

cordales...

AHH, me van a sacar los cordales el jueves...fucking badtrip!

Nubia

Cuando me vaya a estudiar para escuela graduada, quiero llevarme a mi gata Nubia conmigo...

again...

Ok, se que esto es solo otro rechazo más, pero no deja de frustrarme...
lo que me frustra más es que I can't count on certain friends of mine. I mean come one, entiendo que el amor debe ser unilateral, o sea que si amo a alguien de verdad no debería esperar amor de vuelta, porque ese sentimiento es sólo mío. Sure it's very nice when that feelings is reciprocated, but whatever... Si él me hubiera llamado con una situación similar yo hubiera dejado todo para "ayudarlo"...

...pero no, I mean IT HURTS!!!
so much for wise and learned friends when they are so "cold" on the inside...

I mean wtf? desear un poco de amor y cariño es mucho pedir? eso me hace emo? puñeta!

fuck this shit, me voy a dormir hasta el viernes santo...

edit: I don't go "out" since my birthday and my room is a big BIG mess...creo que no me he estado sintiendo bien desde hace mucho tiempo...

Work!

mmm...tengo mucho trabajo que hacer...and here I am, en mi cubículo en las oficinas del proyecto escribiendo y escribiendo y escribiendo...

*Piensa* I need new glasses, a computer mouse and eventually a laptop.

No sé si había dicho esto antes, pero my top schools para estudios graduados son: University of Chicago and University of California at San Francisco... The big city approach.

Voy pa mayaguez en 17 y 18 pa un simposio de investigación, cause my work got accepted. No big deal though, someone told me they supposedly accept any work that's good and stuff... still *a secret yay for me*!!!

Bueno, random people que no me hablan en semanas, de momento me hablan y me dicen que los tengo abandonao's. I mean, no tuve celular por un tiempo, pero still si de verdad querían comunicarse podían encontrar la manera, I did, but they didn't pick up, hahaha... Whatever, I'm out

edit: Grey's Anatomy third season sucks ass...I mean, se puso bien clichoso y ya es hasta estúpido. Next!

The list

Siento que mientras mas leo de otras cosas, menos imaginación tengo...¿Se supone que sea lo contrario no?
Bueno, estoy leyendo mi libro de The Illness Narratives de Arthur Kleinman. Se supone que no janguee hoy, porque tengo que "producir" un resumen de mi investigación...se supone que voy a hacer eso ahora...

me siento bien airhead...

edit: oh, Grey's Anatomy new episode online :)

Moby

Recibí hoy el libro de Amazon, del Dr. Arthur Kleinman...tengo que leer eso pronto para mi investiación.
Tengo tanto que leer, y no quiero leer nada...mas el gre, mas italiano... :(

So the 13th...

...great news: I got accepted to the South Africa Internship.

I sometimes feel like a very "grown-up" person (if such an utterance can be permitted in my vocabulary)...I mean, right now my day to day preoccupations lie on doing the analysis of the focus groups, hand in that abstract, finish those analysis, change that questionnaire... I think I grew up too fast. But I don't mean this in a complaining way, I'm just saying: looking back, I was thrown a lot of stuff very early (too early) in my life.

And the GRE, fucking GRE... I have to deal with that soon enough.

All is well though. There are several people in my vicinity that are making me feel happy, not by doing anything, but just by the great ardor of my infatuation. The girl knows (I think so...), the guy on the other hand...

Enough for a break, I have to get back to the research environment I'm in. I already feel the papers are flourishing by the minute when I'm not touching them.

Sad, but not really

So I'm better now, or so I say...
I got interviewed this past Friday. If all goes well, I may be spending the summer in South Africa doing research. I'm still feeling down and whatnot, but I'm putting those thoughts away for now. I have been reading a lot for my classes and studying for the damn GRE.
I hope New York will welcome me in the next month, and then Boston!

South Africa

Estoy ansioso porque se supone que esta semana me llamen para hacerme una entrevista para ver si me cogen pa un programa ahi pa Suráfrica en el verano por tres meses. Cross my fingers!

Long time, no see...

Long time since I haven't been here...
I don't talk on msn
I don't blog
I'm burned out.

And I have had the sudden impulses of meeting people but then just *sighs*.
Someone is hurting me too much at this moment, and I sincerely don't know what to do. It's one of those love-hate relationships in which you find yourself trapped between: "He loves me, he loves me not..." y pa completar tuve uno de esos sueños freakys en el que todo es cool y superfine con esa persona que en verdad no lo es en estos momentos. Me siento como cuando tenía los sueños esos con Lorrie luego de que nos dejamos, y soñaba que todo estaba bien. How I hated waking up at that time!

This Thursday a friend from California is coming with his girlfriend to visit me, and I'm ecstatic about that.
Anyone want to play Risk with me? I received it yesterday by mail (since not a single store in Puerto Rico has the best board game ever!)

I'll be around...

Snow Patrol

I am in love with Snow Patrol...
I have a lot of work to do, an a Summer internship deadline for next Thursday.
WORK WORK WORK

whatever

I hate this layout, I hate writing in english and I am tired.

fucking a...

Blast, it has to be 12:00 a.m. for me to remember that I had to send my poster for the washington conference before 8 a.m tomorrow...so guess who's doing that at the last minute, because he forgot! aahhh! after all a weekend just doing nothing...

eva

I just finished watching the end of evangelion for the second time...
I am still freaked out, like the first time...

time

where is my time?
where is my time?
...

1. Tengo un revisión biliográfica extensiva para mi "tesina" en la que voy a trabajar en el próximo año y medio.(ni si quiera tengo que pensar todo lo que tengo que leer para esto...)
   
2. Next thursday...poster practice for The COR Colloquium.
   
3. Finish building the data base for the research project I am working on "extra-curricularly"
   
4. October 23-Ensayo monográfico de antropologia demografica...(son como 300 paginas que tengo que leer para esto, incluyendo journal articles)
   
5. October 25 Archaeology Test
   
6. October 26
   1. Hand in Final list of interships/research experiences for next summer.
   2. Hand in Bibliography for my "tesina"
   
   
7. November 1-5... COR Colloquium at Washington D.C.
   
8. November 15
   1. Tercer Ensayo de Antropología demográfica.
   2. Entregar trabajo final de arqueología...(which I hate and is a lot, a lot of work!)

This is me venting...and complaining.

living...

We all need a life...(most of us).
And in some weird way I am satisfied because I am using mine...but then again, maybe that's just my super ego trying to make me clean my room...

OMG...oreos milked in garlic

Oh God, if you do exist grant me some life (to spice up this masque settled in the tropical isle). Don't tell me that you don't exist, or worse that you are on vacation...
"How do you do? How does it feel to be so high?"...but all I get is the persistent tone of me talking alone, and it gets deja vu'ish by the minute.
I better go then, and fall out of love once and for all!

But I'm tired of the new dresses, the new court, the summer progress, the old castle, the new birth, (give me a son!), the old pope, the new way, the weird way, the clock and the new dynasties...I want to be...what? What shall I be? Because if there is one thing I have learned is that be careful in what you wish for, or be anal-retentive about it...

I just need to rest...I am planning a well needed vacation or a well planned suicide (not as needed as the vacation but...who knows, maybe I will get some rest)!

*clears throat*

Tengo Catarro...
and I'm reading abut Neanderthals and the middle pleistocene and shit like that...
Tengo calor by the way...

Nerdy nerd nerd

I got excited when my Anthropology professor gave me this:


my very own ethnography kit for our next wednesday and friday ethnology workshops with field work included!
He gave me my own field notebook, a notepad, pencils, pen, and all personalized...
*hearts my professor in a very platonic way...not in the true platonic way though, but just in the mainstream/cliché kind of platonic way*
so...ecstatic just not describes it, cause he gave the same stuff to 8 of us paying it himself (damn my bureaucratic university!!!). Little things, but significant...as I will cherish this moment for a long time. Teachers like him are awesome!
I'm a happy for being an undergraduate ethnographer!